We have all heard the saying, “diamonds are a girl’s best friend,” but the true value is not in the diamond itself, the truly valuable part is in what that diamond represents. When a special someone places that diamond on your ring finger, he is telling you that he wants to spend eternity with you. He values you as his soulmate…BFF for life. It matters not how many others have been in his life, you are THE ONE. A very special man did that for me. We became soulmates. He loved me deeply. We were no longer two people, we became one. I came alive when he found me. I was allowed to finally be me. He loved me just for who I was…flaws and all. He made me feel beautiful because I could see myself through his eyes. He would go shopping and come home with clothes for me to try on. I knew which to keep and which to return just by the look in his eyes when I tried them on. When those eyes closed for the last time, the loss was unbearable. I lost who I had become for almost 45 years. My constant companion was gone forever. Those adoring eyes were closed never to make me feel beautiful again. I was empty and numb. I went through the motions of making arrangements and accepting condolences from friends and family, but when the numbness wore off, I knew I had lost not only him, but myself as well. I was alone in a home we had once shared so much together. The loss was too real. No longer would someone come through the door excited to see me wearing the clothes he had purchased. I no longer felt the adoration of my one true love. No one would take me to jazz concerts or exotic islands or romantic dinners. We were no longer a couple. The loss was great. Now I was half of a couple, but in reality I felt I was only half of a person. That is when God stepped in. He became my constant companion. I thought I was close to God before, but nothing compares to the closeness with God you feel as a widow. When I had to make major decisions, I could feel His nod of approval. While driving on a lonely mountain road in a rainstorm, I could feel the car saturated with God’s presence and my fear would abate. I am here to witness to you that God loves widows. That is plain to see and feel. I am not saying I do not still miss my husband, but any time I feel alone or afraid, I just call out or reach out for God and then I realize that He is already here. He takes my hand and guides me. God is no longer an invisible presence, but I can feel His physical presence…His peace….His tranquility. What joy I feel in His presence. Nothing in this world compares to this companion. He is more precious than the largest of diamonds. |
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Barbara Ward Galloway
6/25/2019 08:33:11 am
"What Is More Valuable Than Diamonds" was such an inspiration to me. I lost my husband in August, 2018 and God has been my companion ever since. He walks with me and talks with me every day. I no longer fear being alone at night and the storms that rage because I know that I am in His hands and whatever happens, He is right there with me. He is more precious than any diamond.
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AuthorBetty Ward Cain is the author of over 60 books. She is a retired teacher, musician, composer, singer, illustrator, video editor, book editor, etc. She comes from a long line of ministers, musicians, teachers and song writers. Archives
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